The divorce was fast and tremedously sceary, i was so alone in a country where I did not know the law very well. Even if I been living in us for a good bit over nine years i never had a reason to study the family laws.

Perhaps it was more sceary for me just cause i know swedish laws a bit and therefore relied i didnt know enough…

The move back home omg it happend so fast so fast i had the moving company on stand by waiting for my laywer to say it was okey.

To move back home feelt as the only reasonable thing to do right then, to be close to family so at least my girls would have a huge family of garnd moms anad dads, cousins and aunts.

I was out off work, and work didnt seem to come as easily right then my house my poor old house in sweden was empty and cost me money i couldnt afford nor could i rent it out as the main bathroom needed the floor retiled.

so yes life sorta just looked like it was telling me it was time to head back at least for a while. in two days i have been back in Sweden for a full year and I am just as clusless as I was before of where i truly belong.

I miss the sound of cicadas I miss the warm wind on the last summer days, i miss my starbucks coffe, and i mis fostering kitten. There has been no sound of little paws in my room my legs has no marks from little claws and my hands are completly free of bitemarks . My house is filled with cats anyway as i have my own four of them at the moment plus my lojal dog Vanja whom actually is showing some signs of age now all off a sudden.

I am getting way to tired lol to even rember why i did open my computer and what i was going to write about. there is a fresh fall wind blowing through my open window my oldest dughter is sleeping next to me, she will only bee here for a few more days then she is heading back to u.s. for school. I miss her and i hate to have my children spread out and parted from me and eachother. But she was deep into her university studies so it wouldnt have been good for her to just give up and move along with us i guess. Besides she is at that age when she actually are deciding for her self and she is a very smart and driven girl.

I can ponder this question every day and i wont find a answer, I guess I never will belong to just one place one land.

After the market we all wanted something to eat so we headed over to a cofeeshop/bakery. This creation was what i had with a huge cup of cofee ofcause.

As some of us where rather sunburnt from a long nice day at the beach yesterday, we decided to spend this day doing just about anything but not going to the beach. so we went to a place close to my heart Helgumannen.

The kids played at the stone beach while i was trying to shoot as many photos as possible.

Not more then a five minutes walk from dads house this happend to us………

The school logo are this cute lion family and WIdenere Pride is what now days decorate the sports tshirts and yes I am a proud mom,, my wounderfull DD i often call her just that my pride.
There is not word for all the Pride i feel to have a DD like her,

Its not that she is a execlletnt swimmer or have thre majors or is getting published, (works at school and so on could make thsi list long) she is just truely a very wounderfull person and I think that is what I am most proud over.

That her schools colors are the same as the Swedish flag dont hurt at all hehe…

we had some great days back in USA and a big huge enormous thak you to all DDs room mates whom put up with having me and the girls there for such a long time….
DD
Your my pride and joy and i miss you soooooooo much

I am so worried abou the girls right now since i stoped shivering i have no idea how cold they are and how they are doing in the huge crowed i just hope it will be a memorie worth it.

non of us may ever be allowed to vote how do i know or we just might one day but yet we do feel thsi is importend we lived here for such a long time and have some sort of roots here that we just do care a whole lot. elin will never be able to go all teh way politically as she was born in sweden yet she is devoted she did internship whit a senator she reads american goverment as one of her three majors, what can i say more then i am proud over her hard work and effort thought she may not have all the roads open for her i think it shows of a great and genuine heart.

i my self hope to be able to see the speach on tv not as exciting but at least not as cold…………

i hope for dry nice colorfull fall days….

We are living with elin my lovely girl has given up her room for me and sleeps with her sisters in the living room (yeah i do feel awful) the first day Frida went to dance for one of her oldest teachers it was nice thought she kicked mom out of the room (haha) then i droped frida off at a friends house and elin droped Lovisa off at her freind so me and elin went to the mall.

I am christams shopping how crazy early isnt that but i am sure i will be happy for it as my life back home is rather stressfull with the house and school.

Right now lil kajsa is in my bed she has grown so big and become a real beauty we are hoping to be able to bring her home with use.. today we went to dorney park i hope i can add a photo or two later on i am way to tired right now.

the park had people dressed up after six a clock and teh girls realy goot sceard some even a bit to much. the tripstarted with tha one girl threw up only five minutes into the trip so we turned around and got a new set off clothes after resting a little as she thought she only was car sick i took her with me.

well a hour after we arrived we had to call her parents poor girl was sick and needed to be tucked into bed. me and my freidn was stuck by a table with school work (didnt get much done but we looked as we where at least)

i am  so tired i guess i am not makeing a whole lot of sense right now but i wanted to post some today so i am not prosponing it all the time cause that is what makes me post so selldom.

now i am gonna see as much HGT and TLC and Animal planet as i possibli can before i fall asleep which i estimate to about 5 mins (haha)

hugs

mia